Okay, I have no "real" resolution to see to this year. Trust me, if there was just one thing I could think of to make myself a better person I wouldn't even worry about it. Instead I want to live my life with as much good intent as possible. If I do that, then there really isn't any reason to have a resolution. I want to make each day count for something. I'm already in the process of making myself healthier than before. Mentally, anyways. Trying to figure out my medication and reflecting daily on my moods and decisions is a big part of my life right now. Of course I would like to be healthier and plan to do so. But I'm not going to stress out about it.
Mostly, I want to be responsible. This is difficult for me. I wasn't exactly handed the instruction manual on how to be a normal, responsible member of society. A big one for me just recently was on January 2nd, 2012, I had to take my dog to the vet. I had planned on doing this in two weeks, when I had the money, but she was itching and itching and itching and just miserable. She's always had skin allergies but this was getting ridiculously bad. I had to think to myself 'If I had a kid could I wait 2 weeks when they are sick?' ABSOLUTELY NOT! So I called a few vets and got her in to see one that day. No worms, no heart worms, no crap that dogs normally get. So I was really, really happy, and blessed. She got all her shots and she's on heart worm and flea preventative now, she got new food which will hopefully help with her allergies. We'll see. But she is my kid, and I have to buck up and be responsible. For someone who's only had a dog for about 4 months, I feel like I'm getting a hang on having someone to be responsible for. I couldn't imagine life without her and I can tell how much she loves me and I love her soooo much.
I've also been reading more (more means I'm actually reading). Right now I'm trying to finish a book called 'The Art of Racing In The Rain'. It's a fantastic book, written from the perspective of a dog. If I needed another reason to be sensitive to animals, this book would give it to me. After this one, I'll be reading the Steve Jobs biography. Than after that...I'm not sure. Probably an older book. Also, my dog loves it when I read to her. When I read to her, she just gets reeeeeally relaxed and her eyes start to roll back. It's awesome. I guess I'm going to be that guy who speaks of nothing other than his pet now.
In other news: Well...I can't really think of anything else to write about. Movies? Gosh I've seen so many movies. The one's that currently stick out are: The Devil's Rejects (I never thought it would've been so good). Drive (drive was so great, a friend of mine gave it to me for Christmas and I couldn't have been happier about it. I also couldn't be happier that my friends share the same level of homosexual love for Ryan Gosling). The Backwoods (I really didn't know what to expect from this, well, with a name like the backwoods, you have an idea. But it was so much better than what I thought. Spanish/British "horror"? I guess it's a horror). Mission Impossible: Ghost Protocol (Highly entertaining, pretty funny, Tom Cruise is the shit!). Tucker and Dale Vs. Evil (must see horror/comedy, one of the funniest duos of all time IMO). There are plenty of others but I'm not doing a "this year in" thing. Those are just a few of the ones that I've seen or bought over the past weekend.
Oh and here's a snip-it from my youtube channel which I am going to make a major priority now. Feel free to subscribe. The whole "Blind Ghost" thing is a moniker that I came up with for recording purposes. Firstly, I would really like this name if I could ever get a band together. The name comes from me thinking about how horrible it would be to be a blind ghost. Think about it. You're already a ghost and you're fucking blind! Low blow. Sometimes, experiencing depression and depression related things, it feels a little like that. Can't be seen, can't find your own way out of wherever you are. I like it. It's understandable. It has purpose.
http://www.youtube.com/user/oghoskins/featured
Anyways, Have a fantastic year! Let's day by day this thing.
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